🌙 About Me

My Journey with Crystals 

I initially started my journey with crystals by accident. I was frustrated that I couldn't meditate, because I had believed meditation would help me with all the emotional problems I had been suffering from since childhood.

Then one day, I picked up a selenite ball that was nearby and felt all this vibration and tingling. I thought, whoa, what was that about?

Then I started collecting crystals like a crazy woman and tried feeling them all to see what sensations I could feel. 

Eventually, I got really frustrated at the market because so many minerals and crystals were mislabelled (astrophyllite being a common example!). I also started to realise that I sensed different energies or "personalities" from each stone and crystal. It didn't matter if they were the same type of stone; sometimes, each individual stone felt completely different, even opposingly so.

So I decided to open my own store, where I make sure, as much as possible, that the crystals are accurately identified, but also curated according to their perceived energies.

And since working with crystals, my spiritual life just went into rocket speed. I had to endure one of the most challenging periods of my life. Some Christians would say because I was using crystals for New Age purposes, it opened doors to bad spiritual things. I actually explain more on this later on this page. 

However had I not gone through these challenges, and because God is good, I never would have overcome all my emotional issues that plagued me since childhood.

Anyway, I had to deal with sudden chronic pain, which then led me to what I now believe was pretty much a cult to fix the problem that doctors couldn't help me with. It did actually really help me at the time, but later, I woke up to the fact that it had limitations, it was very manipulative, financially driven, so I eventually left even after massive investment into the practice.

Then something happened. 

I don't actually know how it came about, but I think it was a YouTube video done by a pastor. My algorithm started showing me Christian-related podcasts when I wasn't really that interested initially. Then suddenly, I felt like everything made sense. 

Suddenly, Christianity made sense. The whole Jesus thing made sense when previously I thought it was a made-up story by the church.

I was brought up Catholic but never really understood the God of the Old Testament, who seemed to have a multiple personality disorder. There were too many rules, too many things that were sinful, and everything of this world seemed to be evil. It just didn't make sense to me.

Every so often, I'd go back to the Christian God, get disheartened, and turn away. But this time, it was different. My resistance towards God was either pretty much non-existent or had softened considerably. I think it was when I finally got to a place where I could have compassion towards myself that I began to understand the true nature of God, which is unconditional love.

Then the conflict arose, because I realised that I had been using crystals by putting my trust in them, rather than in God. I was giving the crystals the power, when they were meant to serve us through God. My faith and trust had been misplaced.

I started realising that so much of what is taught about spirituality is false. Even many Christian ministers and pastors teach things that are untrue, twist the truth, or they simply lack true knowledge. Download after download whilst in earnest prayer, EVERYTHING started making sense.

We in the spiritual community are so heavily influenced by teachings that sound beautiful and lovely, and in many ways, they can be true—but only to an extent. And if something is only true to an extent, then it is limited. If it is limited, it cannot be the complete truth.

The spiritual industry is full of false teachings. They sound good, they sound right, and you may even experience some benefit from them. But they are incomplete, and there is always something a little off about them. Yet we tend to overlook it, telling ourselves, “Oh, it's probably because I'm not at a stage where I can understand this yet.”

You fix one problem, only to find yourself facing another. So you keep searching and searching for the next new modality, one after another. It never ends.

I started putting away everything I had been relying on for guidance, wisdom, fulfilment of my intentions and protection, that was not of God through Jesus.

But what about crystals?

Are Crystals in Conflict with God?

With crystals, however, I knew with conviction that they were pure and in alignment with God.  I'm still not sure why. It was simply the way they were being used that needed to be corrected.

Scripture tells us to test the spirits (1 John 4:1) and to test everything (1 Thessalonians 5:21), so that is what I did. I prayed for wisdom and for the truth to be revealed to me.

Even though it absolutely pained me—so much so that I physically felt the pain—I was willing to let go of crystals completely if that was what God required of me. This represented tens of thousands of dollars and years spent studying crystals. I was willing to walk away from all of it if it was proven to be out of alignment with God.

I even asked God to take away my ability to sense crystal frequencies and attributes if this ability was not in alignment with Him. This was a skill I had spent years honing, yet I was willing to surrender it.

I also prayed that all crystals that I have sold and still own be cleansed and purified and be aligned to Him.

I put aside everything I had read or learned online and relied solely on Scripture and earnest prayer.

As I looked into Scripture, I began to see how God used stones and precious gems to reflect His beauty, purity, and Kingdom. What needed to be corrected was not the existence of crystals themselves, but my belief in them and my reliance on them for healing and change.

I wrote a quick blog about this here .

Through meditating upon Scripture, particularly the Breastplate of Judgement in the Book of Exodus, I began to gain wisdom about what crystals are for and how they were meant to be used. I also began to understand the true meaning of meditation, which is just quietly sitting in God’s presence and reverence and in doing so, understanding His wisdom and his Word.

In the Book of Exodus, God is incredibly specific about how the priest was to make the ephod, a sacred priestly garment. The ephod included the Breastplate of Judgement, which contained specific precious stones arranged in a specific order and was worn over the heart—a deeply sacred part of the body.

What I find remarkable is that, despite the extraordinary detail and intentionality with which Scripture describes the making of the ephod and breastplate, when it comes to the crystals themselves, many Christians dismiss their significance, saying they were simply random decorative stones that do not really mean much.

But how could this be? Surely we must learn to understand God at a deeper level rather than just at a surface level.

I prayed for wisdom and understanding concerning the breastplate, and I was guided in my study and prayer. I began to understand that crystals were associated with coming into the presence of God.

The ephod and breastplate were sacred and important garments worn by the priest when approaching God, ministering before Him, seeking His direction, making important decisions, and entering the holy place.

But why?

Why Were the Stones Used?

This was when my ability to sense crystal frequencies began to support my understanding of Scripture.

I compared my experiences of coming before God while holding a crystal with to approaching Him without one. Although, through Jesus, we no longer need crystals to approach God or seek His direction, I experienced a palpable difference between the two.

It was almost as though crystals acted as a gate, an opening, or some kind of portal through which I could enter the spiritual realm. This is the only way I can describe the feeling and experience.

However, I want to emphasise again that we do not NEED crystals to come before God, because we now have Jesus Christ.

The Truth and Dangers of Crystals Without Knowledge

I also began to understand why crystals have been stigmatised as evil by the Christian community.

From the experiences that I had, I came to understand that crystals act as a doorway to the spiritual realm. And if someone uses them without the protection of God and without the intention of being in God’s presence, then what might they be opening themselves up to?

Crystals were a gift from God to us. But because they are a tool, they can be misused, misunderstood, and directed towards intentions other than those God intended for us. In this way, they can become spiritually harmful, because people may not understand what they are exposing themselves to in the spiritual realm. 

I had no idea how much unforgiveness and rage had been buried in my heart. If someone carrying all this hidden emotional baggage opens themselves up to the spiritual realm without knowledge or discernment or God, what might they unknowingly be inviting into their life? 

What spiritual influences might they be exposing themselves to through their own ignorance and naivety?

Perhaps this is why I began experiencing chronic pain not long after I started working more deeply with crystals, although God eventually turned that experience into something good.

Scripture warns us:
“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge.” — Hosea 4:6
“My people are gone into captivity, because they have no knowledge.” — Isaiah 5:13

These verses became particularly meaningful to me. They reminded me of how important it is to seek true knowledge and understanding, rather than blindly following teachings simply because they sound beautiful, appealing, or spiritually enlightening.

Because of all this, I knew I had to pray.
I prayed for all the crystals I had previously given away or sold, as well as those I still have, asking that they be purified and cleansed by the blood of Christ Jesus, and that they would serve only as a gateway to God and Jesus Christ. I prayed for all other spiritual access and connections to be shut down and cut off.

I deeply regret the times I sold crystals without having this understanding, and I pray about this with conviction every day.

God Creates Beauty from Ashes
God creates beauty from ashes, and He causes all things to work together for good.

Today, I have recovered completely from my chronic pain and depression. I have also been liberated from the deep resentment, anger, and enormous burden of unforgiveness that I had unknowingly carried in my heart for all those years.

Looking back, I can see how God has used even these experiences to bring me closer to Him, to reveal the truth to me, and to transform my life.

All that being said, crystals are reminders of the beauty, majesty, and awe of God.

They are part of His creation, and I believe they can be used as a means of reflecting upon His beauty, entering into reverence of Him, and seeking His wisdom—not as something to place our faith in or rely upon for power.

Do not be afraid of crystals, but do not put your trust in crystals. Put your trust in God alone. 

Our crystals at Crystal Meditation is for use to come into the presence of God so you start coming to understand the true nature of God and his unconditional love for us through Christ Jesus. 

I sincerely hope you can enjoy and admire the beauty of crystals as God's creation, while always remembering the One who created them.